2020. A Year of Light!

Hey there!

It’s me.

Once again trying to do this thing called blogging. And, once again, aware that no one is reading any of this. (Except for maybe my husband. Thanks dear).

This is hard guys. I have not been able to get this blogging thing out of my head. But even still, be that as it may…… if you pay attention to my last post date, it has been a while!

I keep having these moments of inspiration. And then I think about what I am actually going to write, and I get nervous…. my OCD kicks in…. I tell myself, “If it’s not going to be perfect, then don’t do it!”


So, to kick OCD in the face!….. and do something I wouldn’t have done a year ago….. I am writing this post.

We can officially start now. LOL. 

I was having my prayer time today, and I was thinking about blogging. (Go figure). Which made me start thinking about goals. Which… made me start thinking about this upcoming year. (You know…. #NewYearsGoals). 

I don’t know about you, but I feel as though everyone should have a time at the end and beginning of every year, where they take time to reflect on the past year, and look to the new one.

Soooo…. I had a moment of reflection on 2019, but I didn’t stay there long. Because it took me no time at all to remember that 2019 has been a pretty crappy year.

In business and career terms, 2019 was great! And God has greatly blessed us.

But… in almost all things personal… 2019 has….well…. lets just leave it at that. (C’mon, we don’t know each other that well yet).

I told God that I wanted a new start this new year. In every way. I asked him what this year held for us.

I had this phrase come to my head:

2020. A year of light.

And I even felt like, for whatever reason….. I should come on here and share that with you!

*Crickets chirping*

Now, I don’t know if that means anything to you. But… light is the opposite of what 2019 was for me.

I’m hoping, and trusting in the Lord, that He will make all things new. And turn all of the darkness into light.

Even though it is not always easy…. and my EMOTIONS don’t always feel it…. I will choose to trust God, and expect good in my life. Because that’s what His word promises.

Romans 8:31-32

31 What shall we then say to these things? If God be for us, who can be against us?
32 He that spared not his own Son, but delivered him up for us all, how shall he not with him also freely give us all things?

So what does a year of light actually mean? Like… in daily life?

I’m not sure.       


But I know He will show me. And I’m anxious and excited for the start of a new chapter of


Here’s to the NEW YEAR! 2020!

Step #3 of trying to live life one moment at a time.

WHY Am I Doing This?

“Why am I doing this?”

Have you ever asked yourself this question? Unfortunately, many people don’t. But I found myself asking this as I sat down to start a blog.

There are many different reasons why someone would want to start a blog. There are tons of blogs out there already, one for every topic you can probably imagine. 

So many… that the thought of starting “another blog” can be really intimidating!

“Who is going to read it?”

“Who would WANT to read it?”

“What do I have that’s interesting enough to talk about?”

“Will anyone even find it in the great abyss of the world wide web?!”

If you have ever considered starting a blog, a YouTube channel, or anything of the like…. you KNOW what I’m talking about. I know you’ve asked yourself all of these questions, plus more. 

SO….. instead of trying to figure out all the “how’s” and “what’s”……… I decided to ask myself the WHY….

Why am I doing this? Why should I blog?

Why do you do what you do?

Your “why” in life always the best place to start. It can be a way to determine if your motives are good or not. Which can be a good way to determine the likelihood of you committing, and actually sticking with something… or not. 

Let me give an example. An example that I am sure almost all of us can relate to in some sort of way. 

Working out.


Many people WANT to workout. Some people TRY to workout. And then FEW people actually workout on a regular and consistent basis. 

Why is this? Some of you may have not even thought to ask why.  Or others may have come to to their own conclusions. Like…. “Oh that person is just more disciplined than me.”

This may be true in a general, broad sense. But it is not THE reason why. 

The reason why some people work out and some people don’t, is their WHY. 

I can tell you from personal experience. I used to always be that person in the middle, the “SOME PEOPLE”. I had good desires and intentions, and even worked out off and on for short periods of time. But, it never lasted. And I beat myself up for it. During this time, my reason, (or my why), for working out was for appearances. “Vanity”, if you will. That reason was not a good enough reason for me, and so I never stuck with it. 

(Side note: I am not saying that appearance is not a good enough why. For some people it is enough; and these people stick with it and even enter competitions and make it a hobby!)

Later on in life, I had gone through some health issues. (Nothing serious). During this time I felt like crap and was actually not ABLE to work out for about a year or so. 

Once I got past all of that, my doctor not only gave me the go-ahead to work out… but I actually felt good! And I WANTED to work out. I now wanted to work out because I felt happy, and blessed to be healthy. Every day I would go to the gym and think about lucky I was that I could be there, because there are a lot of people who can’t be there. 

My “why” changed.

It changed from vanity, to gratefulness. And gratefulness has been a good enough “why” for me. It has kept me consistent. And not only that, but I enjoy my workouts. Instead of hating them, and grudgingly “getting through” them. 

Annyyywaaaaaayyss…… that is my small life lesson for today. LOL. I say all of that to say that…. after thinking about it…. I decided that I needed a WHY for blogging. Not a “what”. I have lots of “what’s”, and I will figure them out as I go.  (A topic for another post).


Why am I doing this? Why am I blogging?

My WHY is…. because I want to help others. I want to help teach, motivate, encourage, push, inform, and even love on people! I have a unique life that no one else has. We all do.

I have been through quite a few things already in my life, and I feel that there is at least one thing that I can share that can help another person.  Even if it’s one person. 

I personally feel like popularity, glory, recognition, or money would not be good enough “why’s” to keep me on track. And in the end, what’s the point of it?

Don’t get me wrong…. I am not already claiming to be the best, most avid blogger you ever knew. I don’t know how long I will do this, or where it will lead to. But, at this point in time…. I feel like this is what God wants me to do. 

It came to my mind randomly one day, and has not left since. 

So, I plan on being here until God tells me otherwise. And that may mean once a week, or once a month… who knows. 

But here I am…. pursuing what my spirit is telling me for now.

Step #2 of trying to live life, one moment at a time. 

Is Anyone Listening? I’m trying to start a blog!

Starting A Blog is Awkward

Hello there,

I understand that I am pretty much talking to myself at this point. But, let me tell you something…. let me tell tell you what I am doing at this very moment!

What I am literally doing at this moment is…… I am starting a blog!

I talked to people and I told them, “I am going to start a blog!”

“Yay!” They replied “That’s so cool,” They said. “You definitely should do that,” they encouraged.

So, excited and motivated, I put together a site, (sort of). I made it look all pretty, (at least I think so anyway). And then… I sat there. And I stared at the screen. Then I stared at the wall….. Then something caught my eye; I got distracted and put my computer down.

This happened several times. Until, a few months later… I still had not posted my first blog post. After all that work of getting a website up and running! ( I even got that fancy little lock pad next to my URL, saying that I am secure!)

I kept hesitating as I asked myself: What do I say? Where do I start? What do I talk about? What will people want to read?

I have ideas, but none of them seemed right for a first post.

I’ve heard many people say, “Just start.”

I don’t really know what they meant. But, after too much over-thinking and time-wasting…..I decided that I would literally just start by posting a blog post.


Even though it’s insignificant and not entertaining at all…. I DID IT!

I spit in the face of awkwardness, and fear, and procrastination to bring you this post.

Is it good? Goodness no.

Am I blabbing? Probably some.

But nonetheless, I am happy to be here. Happy to finally be hitting the “PUBLISH” button. And happy to start this new journey with whoever the heck will take the time to listen to what I have to share.

This is step #1 of trying to live life, one moment at a time.